Bad Ass Fred

Ironic ain’t it with the title and how i had been acting for the past few weeks.

I can’t believe that i used to hide my feelings as i do not like showing weakness to my enemies. I don’t like anything that can be used against me in a battle.

I used to be the one showering care and concern to those who require. The one who delivers sensible advice upon understanding the problem. The strong one.

However, for the past 2 weeks, all i had been doing is acting like a cunt over somewhat of a girl that i only knew for 3 months.

Yes tons happened during the 3 months that only a drug addict will understand when lost. However its stupid and redundant of such feelings that i am having now. Yes I still miss her at times but i doubt she’d like me living my life in its current state.

Sorry Fredrik’s a pussy when he’s hard heart broken. Blame it on the chemicals one produces during Love and when falling out of Love.

However its done and gone.

I was talking to Cyn about getting my lip piecing since i wanted to go get it done with chubby (shes getting her septum done), by the private piercer that cyn knows.

Well apparently mr piercer was having girl problems as well thus, its was kinda hard to communicate with him over MSN.

Well Cyn and I started talking about badass guys randomly (rough gauge of the conversation goes..)

Cyn: I like badass boys, who can flirt and all but still willing to be sweet enough to do stuff for you.

Fred: hah sounds like a tough case. hard to find sia..

Cyn: YOU FIND FOR ME LAH.

Fred: Well its hard to find sweet badasses now though. most of them just turn out to be jerks of course… other then me. i rock

Cyn: hah yeah but you’re not bad ass enough. as long as i’m more badass means the guy is not badass enough

Fred: hah true ah, thats why i’m under you what lol! (cyn was my president, and i was the vice president when running our design club in RP)

The underline fact. i’m setting a statement now. i’m not going to let redundant relationship problems affect me and my life, i didn’t cut myself open for nothing, i did it so that i am able to accomplish the things that i want to do 6 months ago but was unable to do so cause of this dreaded lung condition.

I will be badass.